networking

well, i understood from my buddy, that at our age now, we should start networking… getting to know more people, mixing around with people from all around, from colleges, universities, work place anywhere they might be.. to expand our social lives (ie: our network)

to a certain a extent i agree.. it’s very important to us now, especially at this age, or perhaps, in a way, it’s a little late.. but then again, it’s always never too late.

it’s always great expanding our networks.. meeting new people from all sorts of works, all kinds.. especially those in working world… they tend to be more mature.. though there might be some exception where some are not. I agree, i do have a number of frens who are working, few years older.. some whom i got to know when i work, some thru frens n so forth.. I really do learn at least 1 thing from them in every chat. They always share their experiences with us.. well, not all.. i remember deeply in my memory.. i heard from this guy, sorry, i cant remember his name.. he said a phrase to me, "you are who u hang out with, if ur frens are all managers, even u r not at that time, very soon u will be a manager as well, vice versa".. i agree to that so much!

however, it’s not always u will meet with nice people whom are willing to share things with u, or not to say share things, but really good people, isn’t easy to find.

there’s good n bad, but i would say there’s more of bad.. many people out there, aren’t really as nice as they seem, they might have 2 faces, they might have motives.. u never know… or some might even like a witch! which is something i hated..

well, it all depends on ur luck (10%) and basically oso the place u met these people… there are some offices where they accomodate some "ah bengs" which is so kiasu… or backstabbers, "bitches"… i find it hard to get into networking.. in the sense that u did it on purpose, like u make it happen.. it dont work out smoothly, they way u wanted… but i dont mind if it all happens naturally… well, u go out… n don’t always trap in our "own" world… that will be good enough…

networking is something really tiring, where u wil risk ur IQ n EQ… it’s a GOOD LUCK, if we get to meet the right people, but it’s a DISASTER, a HELL, if we coincidently met with those wrong people, they will cause u alot of troubles!

networking? not really my kinda stuff, but i love meeting with new people… but hate it when meeting with the "black sheeps"… did i juz contradicted myself??

i rather not knowing now

previously, watever it is, whtr it’s good or bad.. i would die to know.. cos i wanna noe… u may say im a busy body… but would i still be one if it relates to me directly or even indirectly?? anyhow, i do get affected??

well, im no longer like this anymore…

today, i rather not knowing.. for most of the things… isn’t it better not knowing such things, things which are going to make u sad, make u confused, make u miserable n gonna disturb u for the rest of the day? but it’s differently today.. the more u dunwan to know, the more u dont even wanna bother, the more it haunts u… fortunately or unfortunately, ur past affects ur present, so does ur future…

same goes even if im willing to share things or not… previously, i grumble n whin to almost all my buddies about everything that bothers me… but WHY isn’t it happening today? i feel, i feel happier whin n grumble in front of my frens, they can at least make my day… they don’t help physically but by hearing they helped alot!

it’s different today.. most of the time, or perhaps, all the time, i rather not mention, or not to even think about it.. even if asked, i would shy away.. i would change the topic, move on to other topics, anyway, anything, any kinda conversation they might be, but juz not the things i’m avoiding… i dunwan mention, i dunwan share, i’m not willing to.. i believe if i keep it, if i don share it, if i dont mention it anymore… i will forget them little by little, someday it will dissappear.. i also believe, this is merely a belief.. which is inaccurate… cos it’s a fact, something which has happen, will never dissappear… it’s like a scar, a mark, perhaps a birth mark (traditionally when there’s no such thing called plastic surgery) u can never remove them, it will always stay where it is… it’s always there, no matter how u avoid them, no matter how hard u try to forget about them…. it’s juz part of me… part of the journey of my life…

time passed, things happened, we as human, learn along the journey, we gotta be aware, we dont juz learn by reading books, or going to colleges/unis, we learn every hour, every min, every second.. every tick of the clock, we are breathing, heart is beating.. we eventually learning… whether it’s a good or bad thing…

i find myself, learning how to avoid things or problems instead of facing them n accepting them the way they are.. which is no good.. or perhaps, i dont bother knowing doesnt mean i’m running away.. i’m juz keeping myself away from such chaos in life created by nuisance… BAD? perhaps, keeping all inside, is bad…. but it works for me.. it does somehow or rather time passes, the "issues" passes with time……….

too late for birthday wish?

well, after a week passed, i guess i noe wat i want for my birthday.. i want a better next year, the year after, n the years after!

life has ups n downs, there are good times n bad times… but y mine has more downs than ups and, bad times than more times?? WHY???

karma?? for being a bad person?? well, maybe, i dunno… i’m not so good after all.. neither would i say i m good, kind gal.. I’M NOT…

i starting to realize that this year… not merely juz a bad year for me.. but it’s kinda really bad… as almost all the important days in my life had been screwed!

let’s look at "my history book"

First day CNY = trapped in the lift for like 30mins

First week CNY = fell down from bicycle, having blue blacks n bumps all over, wounds n sratches on my skin (til now it hasn’t fade)

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My birthday = upset tummy, purging n fever

hopefully, there’s no more to come after THIS!!

it’s too late for my birthday wishes to be fulfilled?

life goes on

"time does not wait til u fully recover"

well, i guess i m in the process of recuperating after having a "shocked" past few days.. having realized that no matter wat it is.. we can’t fight our fate or destiny.. trust me, u cant never do so..

this year has been a year, i wouldn’t say a really terribly bad year, but i would say in better terms "a challenging n filled with obstacle" year.. from the first day into year 2007 until today, i have never been happy, i mean "HAPPY". Well, of course, not til the extent where i cry 24/7 or i never laugh from the 1 of Jan 2007 til today…

things juz don’t seem to wanna go my way.. it don’t flow smoothly.. it seems to go against me in almost everything i do.. practically, to everything i want.. I shd be thankful God when i can actually wake up every day, breathe into a brand new day.. but i don’t really feel so.. i mean, to me, everyday is the same old day.. it has never been new anyway.. perhaps, more newer problems n matters would come up…

whenever i sleep, i feel i’m at the most comfortable pace, i hope time juz stop there… whenever it’s time to wake up, whenever i opened up my eyes, i keep telling myself everyday "how i wish this dream will last, the dream was beautiful…" problems n worries are keep piling up from one day to another.. wat can i do??

these are part n parcel of life.. time doesn’t stop n waits.. the clock keep ticking from one second to another second.. everytime u r sad, perhaps u "Stop" at that particular moment, wasting plenty of time for the tears n whining.. when u are disappointed with urself, keep recalling back at the disappointment, u never noe how much of time u’ve wasted, when u can actually use up that time to mend wat u have lost/missed or could’ve done sth to avoid such disappointments..

life goes on….

the time doesn’t stop n waits.. no such thing, neither could u turn back time.. NO! all u can do is to not to look back at wat u’ve done n keep whining.. but to perhaps, look at it, figure out the main problem, where the problem lies, what n where went wrong, improve from there.. don’t blame, don’t lose hope, don’t lose faith.. don’t juz stay there but move on to the next stage or phase… move on..

i’ve learned that… life goes on no matter how bad life is.. in life, there’s ups n downs… sth are juz unavoidable.. beyond our control.. all we can do, is to do our part, live positive.. no matter wat life goes on…. we juz gotta be strong to accept the fact, we have to accept them be it good or bad…. this is life