OMG! i’m the stupidest creature alive!!!!

i guess my mom were rite.. i am coward.. i am stupid!!!!! how come am i doing law??? (well, who says stupid ppl cant do law??)

i’m so worry that bad thing will happen.. till i kinda made it happened when it was not meant to happen! OMG!!! this is the most stupidest thing i did.. especially.. showing my weakness.. showing my stupidity to my opponents.. revealing OUR weaknessess… causing others being embarrassed as well..

well, i called my buddy n spoke to her.. she said.. it’s ok.. it’s over… dont think so much!

another fren of mine.. i saw on9.. he said.. dont think so much.. dont think of wat others gonna do to u… perhaps they dont even think of doing anything.. juz live happy… less worries…

perhaps, they were rite.. i’m juz thinking too much.. scarying myself.. trapping myself… causing troubles which weren’t meant to happen after all!!! but then, how can i not be worry??? would u want to c ppl fight? would u wanna c others to quarrel??

NO i dont!!! if possible i wanna avoid them as much as i can do!!!! that’s y, whenever i’m being put in a position where a fight or quarrel is going to start… i will sure LOSE even before the fight starts!!!!!!!!

arghh… i cant forgive my mistakes.. is it small matter??? no.. i dont think small matter…

cos it’s because of me~!!!!

my fault!! argghhhhhh!!!!

i admit, i am a coward… n the most important, i am stupid!!! the matters caused me even more stupid.. they had blinded me making me over alert.. til i made so many mistakes.. i worry too much!!! *
sigh* i cant help it.. neither could i change it.. i tried.. but it juz dont work out…

arghhhhh…. im so embarrased… so stupid… so BODOH!!!!!!!!!!!

goodbyess

wat is wrong with me???

speaking of GoodBYEs…. aww… i sucks at it.. in particular… saying Goodbyes in farewell…. fuh!

everytime, when it comes to say goodbye… i dont do it right.. i dont get it right… end up feeling sad n bad about it… not having done wat i suppose to do…

how would a good farewell, "goodbyes" be like?? i mean.. how would u say bye.. especially when knowing that, u might not (most probably) in ur life, u will never meet those ppl anymore??? i told u, i really sux at it! i wanna meet that someone again after this farewell.. i wouldnt say i regret… but i’m juz so blur n slow… i shd’ve done sth every rational smart person would do… but i juz dont.. perhaps i shall say, any normal person, would do…!

aww… im gonna miss wat i m supposed to MISS…..

there are times….

there are times, when u r down or happy, u juz feel like sharing it someone

there are times, u juz feel like keeping it all to urself…

u dont feel like telling anyone about anything u went thru…

perhaps, u juz dont want to remind urself of the things that upset u..

u juz wanna forget, if possible, any bad memory.. any silly things u did…

it could be anything…

there are times, u just "dont wanna talk about it"

don’t you?

Ooopssss… i did it again!

i did it AGAIN, for the 3rd time… well, i’m not going to tell wat i practically did… for 3 times!

hmm, i guess, my buddy, who were with me 3 times, when i did wat i did, was rite… that he said.. i actually gradually improving, altho… not from good to better to best… but from ok to ok-er… lol … hopefully, the next time would be OK-est!!

"practice makes perfect!"

apart from wat i did AGAIN… The K’s had finally meet up for a reunion.. which the last time we had was half year ago.. since the last Chinese New Year… isn’t that long???

there had been alot of hassles n obstacles for us to actually come out to meet up.. n it’s really frustrating! some are working, studying, exam-ing, assignment-ing, BUSY-ing…

ish!!! wanna meet up for a meal oso so hard…!

anyhow, altho today’s reunion was kinda short… but still it’s better than nothing… we were back together… finally able to update each other about wat r we doing lately… n the most important.. we had a great laugh!! aiyoo….

it is always most comfortable to be with the ppl u r closest with n those ppl who noes u best! oh well, they noe me best! i am.. i admit, i m the most peculiar, i’m the miss perfectionist, i complain alot especially when im bad mood… n not to forget, i’m the joker.. etc etc n this, only those really close to me will noe it..lol

we do all the crazy things, the funny things, the silliest things, the embarrasing things together! that when we c others doing it, we say they "gila!" but when we do it, we feel that we are "cool!" we aren’t acting our age!!!! hahaha.. "young at heart" wat to do???

^.^ cant wait for the nxt reunion

equation of the month ..?

NO $$ + NO H20 = NO Happiness

am i exhausted?

was it because i m exhausted or was it because i’m thinking too much till i feel this tired? i really wonder….

im feeling really tired… mentally, emotionally, n physically… i have no idea why… perhaps, i m really thinking too much.. asking for too much… over certain things… think think think till im feeling so so so tired.. n exhausted….

or.. was it that i myself had been staying up late… till i feel really tired n exhausted… n feel so down n miserable…. perhaps… this is "night-down syndrome aka night depression"

this sounds crazy… don’t u think so??!!

i’m juz over-think!!!! i wish i can stop thinking so much.. being a deep thinker!

ignorant

at times, i wish im more ignorant with my surroundings.. with the things going on around…. i really do wish is.. especially when im told about so many on-goings…. which really freaks me out.. made me feel depressed… made me so devastated.. making me so worry…

oh well, yes.. im a worrier… instead of a warrier… :s

not speaking about reading the news… but.. actually surfing the net… even without browsing thru the news site.. i do…. i will sumhow still be told about the news.. about the latest on-goings.. which i find it even worst than reading the news!

have u received emails with pics in it.. some with videos… some attachments which u can’t possibly be able to access it elsewhere? aww.. i shall not mention wat kinda mails.. as it can b anything.. u name it… u noe it!

with such, u will get clearer pic of wat is going on… clearer pic of wat happened… clearer info.. which is harder to accept….

how i wish i m more ignorant than i m now….

i would seriously consider me… an ignorant person… a bit slow at times.. kinda way behind today… yet at the same time… subconsciously, i m moving with the time… (ah~~ of course..??)

if i was more ignorant… i might feel better now.. i might feel more relaxed.. i might c the beauty in my life… i might live happier, perhaps, longer… but don’t u think, sadness in life is more, much more than happy times?? SUX!

perhaps.. being a virgo does somehow affect me attitude… being such a worrier.. such a peculiar person at the same time.. a deep thinker… a perfectionist! oh yes! i admit~!

on the other hand, being more scientific… im more like my mom, i suppose… it’s the matter of genetics…. she is worrier, a deep thinker… oh gosh!!!

well, wat m i worrying about?? wat m i thinking about?? y m i always so devastated/miserable… sounds so unhappy???? only God knows!

technically, i m not always living unhappy… i m a definitely a HAPPY KID… feeling contented most of the times… but i m a worrier.. i over-think over everything! when i do so, that’s when i get miserable… confused…..

therefore, don’t u think, that being an ignorant would always b a better solution for me… well, i don’t mean that i wanna b gila, or being mentally retarded or having any illness… choi!!! i mean.. KEEP AWAY ALL THE DEVASTATING NEWS!!!!!!

before it’s too late - SAVE THE WORLD!!!

we gotta save the earth before it’s too late!!!

we r not juz going to say that we are going to start doing something, but we muz start to act… by doing small little things.. like stop open burning, stop cutting trees, start recycling… watever u can think of!

we, as the humans, categorized as the smartest animal.. as they had brains.. they can think, they create, they invent.. they are juz way much smarter than the other animals… humans are juz speacial…

but, as a human, i feel embarrassed, ashamed! WHY??

well, we the smartest, being the speacial species on earth… we r technically, practically destroying our mother nature.. destroying our earth.. destroying our future, destroying our very tomorrow, destroying the other animals home… basically, destroying ourselves!

well, yes.. we r so smart.. we had all the coolest, smartest, latest technologies, gadgets.. created, invented everyday… whilst… at the same time.. our earth, is destroying.. is "killing" people everyday! we are doing so much for tomorrow.. but how come, it feels like nobody is thinking of "we might not have tomorrow" ???

i shall not say more.. we all noe the world today.. we all noe the weather today.. we all noe wat is going on nowaday.. but, we do not noe when is exactly end of the world?

we can’t stop it.. but we can delay it… we gotta save the world…. as it is too late to say it’s too late!